Love message revival

Hello dear friends.

I know I´ve been hesitating preetty long to write another journal, but the time of the new one has already come. The last one was about Valentine Day. About love.

Today I wanna speak littlle selfishly. Wanna tell you about a strange thing that happend to me last Friday.

Past months were trully not the best-especially because events and facts that were happening around, to my friends and closed people and thereby to me too. I have to say, it was a (and still it is) quite hard time. I´m not a naive person, I know problem won´t vanish away just because we want them to go. But we are fighting still (with more or less success). Maybe you´ve noticed that I didn´t post almost nothing at past weeks and months. It´s becuase the fact, that everything I started to create, ended ripped into pieces and thrown into a trash bin.

But-I should return back to what I was writing about at the top-the "strange Friday"...

It was in the morning, I was sitting in the trolleybus, going to work. After all those days filled with sadness and fear of people I love, I was thinking about the meaning of everything we do. The meaning of the fact I´m sitting at the trolleybus, going to job I surely didn´t dreamed of, about the people who meant something in my life and they are gone away, about the suffering of those who surely don´t deserve such horror and about lots of other things. But, then, the trolleybus stopped at the bus stop and I have seen a wonderful scene. The rays of morning sun were going through the drops of dew left on the grass and spring flowers by the road. I was listening-as always on my way to work-my MP3 player. Right in the moment I saw this wonderful picture, I heard those lyrics from the song: "And it´s all for you..."(Seal-Wedding day [link]). This was the answer to all my questions I had last months. Even you´re down, you´ve got a gift to see things, other won´t ever see. This was all for me, only for me at the moment. I looked around and saw people sitting at the same trolleybus as I, but they were looking either to some tabloid newspaper or they were sleeping cause it was morning. They were not endowed that morning with this wonderful gift. They haven´t seen the field filled with pearls thrown into the grass.

Even we´re sometimes so down, we can´t imagine being lower, there´s always something beautiful. I´m thankful for the gift to see things others don´t see.

I want to say thanks for everything, even the stars sometimes fade to grey, even the stars hide away (The Weepies-Hideaway [link])

At the end-I wish to all my friends and dear people to recover soon from everything that makes their lifes harder then before.

Hankita

The Valentine day is comming. Some people here in Czech republic are very sceptical and critical about this day. They say it´s just a comercial kitschy US feast, draging money out of our wallets for useless things such as coffee cups with heart prints, roses and plushy hearts. Well, it´s an opinion and as an opinion it must be respected. But do we really know the meaning of the feast?

It´s not about buying those knick-knacks... It´s not about eating heart shaped belgian chocolate... It´s not about drinking champagne and eating strawberries... If anyone wants it, I agree, do what you want-I have nothing against it if you really mean it. Anything what makes you happy is good for you. But this feast shall be (at least in my opinion) a day when you think of those you love. The day when you take the phone and call them to tell them... The day when you go and see them. The day when you do what you feel you shall do. And doesn´t matter if you express your feelings by flower in your hands, by a kiss, by words or any other way.

Today, on my way to the town, I have seen a wonderful thing. A billboard near the road, which usually shows some advertisment, showing kinda different message. Here it is: "For the best woman in the world-Ivanka, I love you the most, You´re the greatest person I´ve ever met. Thank you for everything, love you, Peter."
Someone (named Peter) rented this billboard to send this message to his love (Ivana). Isn´t it nice? I think this message shown on the billboard is a real cogent argument against all those voices who say the Valentine Day is useless, comercial feast.

We shall show our love to those we love all around the year. Not only one day. But if we have a special day for it, why not to make the best of it? You don´t have to spend a single penny or cent... You don´t have to buy anything. You are here just to tell and act... So do what you shall and mean it.

And remember-even you think there´s no one in the whole world you could tell it or there´s no one in the whole world who could tell you, believe me, there´s alway someone... But you probably don´t know yet.


Ough... That was romantic.......Too romantic ...Back to reality

Love always
Hana/Hankita

Today, I asked myself, why I was born with love for art and every kind of creation...Why it hurts me so much to shape myself into the role generally demanded. It would be much easier to be a usual average girl, working as a ...I don´t know what, for example-shop assistant, or to be a business woman offering some king of building material, or trading stocks, work as a telephonic support of some customer service... Why do I need more? Why-when there are milions of people doing jobs like these... Why I´m not satisfied and why am I still hoping that I will do one day a job I will like? Why am I so free to choose when there are milions of people who would be very happy if they had any job-no matter what kind of job? Is there any hope or am I just a dreamer far away from the reality searching for something what actually doesn´t exist? Is it a crime-wanting more? Is it a crime to wanna do what makes me happy?

If anyone of you knows the way to go, please tell me. I´ll be gratefull for any direction. Thanks

UPDATE of journal entry: YAY, I decided to take some time to learn more in Photoshop and therefor I set up a new DA account Digital-Hankita. Please, take a look at my efforts at [link]

Hi everyone!

Today #1 on my TO-DO list is to propagate my page:
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I´ll be very happy if you accept my invitation Enjoy and have a wonderful day!

I opened the window today and I heard the birds singing... Sun is shining. Even it´s unbelievable, it happens. It´s 10th February, it´s supossed to be freezing. But supposed things aren´t happening always.

Last two years were especially strange. I though this new one must be much better. I thought, when something bad happens there must be something good comming on. And appropriatelly-when something good happens, be sure to get a stroke right to your nose very soon after that to put back your feet on the ground... According to it, next two years (including this one) should be great. And I am asking-really? I learned something. There´s no justice, no sharing bad and good exactly 50:50... Crime is not always followed with punishment and Good acts are not always followed with a awards and thanks...

Even I´ve gone through some really naughty and bad things, I´ve heard many awful words when I tried to did my best, when I was on the edge of all my powers, lost and hopeless I always kept my head up so no one noticed my inner feelings and though I´m invicible and strong. It´s always better to keep your feet on the ground. Importance of life in something different than just in success and fame. Wish you all to find the meaning of your life.

Open the window and listen a while... Maybe there´s a bird singing somewhere near... And if not, believe, you will hear it someday. After two years wading in half meter of snow must come a time when you pass through free...
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Gallery info:
I decided to restore some old pieces which were taken with a photo cam. I have a scanner now, so they look much better scanned. The pictures are also available as prints. Enjoy and thanks for viewing
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